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Character Development Survey - Vanessa Sparks
You know the drill by now.



15. How would you describe your childhood in general?

Ugh, strict, strict, and then some strictness thrown in? My parents were the typical southern baptist parents. We attended church every Sunday, all of our activities centered around what our church was doing, and that was about all we were allowed to do. Very few video games, no rap/rock music, limited movies and books, stuff like that. I was forced into so many dresses my head could spin from it. We had to be home by seven, unless of course, the youth group was doing something. I could have a friend over once a month and we had to have our lights out by eleven. I mean, don't get me wrong, I had fun, but still, my childhood was very sheltered and I didn't really realize how the world was until I took it into my own hands. I started rebelling and doing things I wasn't allowed to. And then my brothers were attacked and I came here to live with them in Alaska because I couldn't stay with my parents because THEY thought my brothers were devil worshipers or something because it happened to them. My childhood was...I dunno. It wasn't great.

24. As a child, what kinds of personality traits did you display?

I've pretty much always been who I am no. I wasn't allowed to show it much back then, but I've always been the friendly, bubbly little blonde that I am now. I was just more subdued back then. But, as you know, it wasn't really my choosing that I was. I was still the type of kid to help anyone out that needed it, which my parents actually encouraged that, as long as I didn't do anything past help them. Say if they were thirsty, I was to give them water but not talk to them because they could be an unrepented sinner or something like that, I dunno. Guh, I'm sorry. It keeps going back to my parents, but that strictness really shaped my childhood, you know?

31. What do you consider your greatest achievement?

Hm, wow, I dunno! I mean, I'm just seventeen, I've not really had that much chance for a 'greatest achievement' you know? Unless you count making captain of the cheer squad! Which, now that I think of it? You totally SHOULD! I don't care if this is just ALASKA, it's still really big to make captain, you know? Other than that, I'm pretty much just a normal girl, and I'm fine with that!

34. Do you have a criminal record of any kind?

HAHAHAHAHA! NO! I'm a superhero, haven't you heard? JESUS GET WITH THE PROGRAM, BUDDY!

35. When was the time you were the most frightened?

The MOST frightened? Well, that would be when my brothers were attacked. I mean, it was a deer! Since when do DEER attack people? And why my brothers? We weren't doing anything! Just walking home from a youth group meeting and all the sudden this deer just attacks them and starts ripping into them and I've never been that scared before in my entire life. And I thought I was next, but it just looked at me and went away. I don't know why that happened, but it did and it was horrible and I still have nightmares about it. My brothers are fine now, but...I didn't know if they would make it or not. Animals have all sorts of diseases and all. I know now that it was just a were, but still.....

41. What is your greatest fear?

I guess that last question is probably a tip off, but losing my brothers. They've not only been my brothers, they've been the two people that have guided me my whole life. I don't care that we are all close in age, I don't. They mean the world to me and without them I'd probably just...go to shit, basically. I need them, and I think they need me. I thought I'd lost them once and I never, ever, want to go through that again. It's a horrible thing to think about, and I have nightmares.....And then it's not just them. I can't imagine losing anyone I care about. If Evan or Ray or Carter were to.....I don't know. I just don't know. I'd lose it.

60. How close are you to your family?

Tell me something, have you had this pounded into your head just yet? I mean, seriously. All of these have pretty much tied into my family. You know the deal, I'd give anything and everything for my brothers. My parents, even though I love them, not so much. They can't accept my brothers, they can't accept me. Period. So there you have it.

90. Name three things you consider yourself to be very good at, and three things you consider yourself to be very bad at.

-Cheerleading. Yadda, yadda, yadda. Tell me I am superficial, I don't care! I really am good at it, so there you go. NYAH
-Listening. When a friend needs me, I know how to listen. I may not always be the best friend, and I screw up a lot, but my friends know that they can come to me anytime if they need a shoulder or an ear. They know that.
-Putting my foot in my mouth! Yes, I am being completely serious. I'm fantastic at that, didn't you know?

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-Keeping quiet. I have a big mouth. I know I do, and I'm working on it. I just...open it way too much and cause problems with it. Way to go me, huh?
-Controlling myself. I am usually just bouncing off the walls and I can't stop it. I mean, it's not always a bad thing, but seriously? Sometimes I just think "chill girl, chill."
-Being honest with myself. No. Fuck. That's not right. Yodeling. I can't do that for crap!

93. What goal do you most want to accomplish in your lifetime?

I want to be known for something. I don't know what yet, but I do. I want people to know who I am. I want to go down in history. I know that is a lame, cookie cutter answer, but it is the truth.

98. What three words best describe your personality?
Hyper. Nice. (mostly) Optimistic.