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Character Development Survey - Paul March
Taken from here. Ten random number generated here.



7. Write a full physical description of yourself. You might want to consider factors such as: height, weight, race, hair and eye color, style of dress, and any tattoos, scars, or distinguishing marks.

Er, well, I'm pretty much a failure at this type of thing. I've never been good at describing myself, not even what I look like. I mean, I'm not tall, but I'm not short. My hair is around medium length, I guess. I can't put it in a pony tail or anything. It's brown? I dress casual, and I don't have any tattoos or anything....not yet, anyway. I might get one someday or something? Told you I was really bad at this.......

16. What is your earliest memory?

It's weird, but like, I can remember my Dad's funeral. I don't remember much about him, really. I have like, little snapshots of who he was and what he was like, but the funeral? It's like a movie I can play over and over in my head. And I'd say that, while that probably isn't my first memory, that is the first one that I can latch onto and be able to describe in full detail. I guess stuff like that sticks with you or something. I'm not sure.

19. Where did you learn most of your skills and other abilities?

What skills and abilities? And I'm being completely serious here. I don't know how to do much, I'm pretty useless at a lot of stuff. I mean, small stuff like how to ride a bike and skateboard and stuff? I got that from my brothers. They taught me how to be strong and how to take things without letting your emotions show, I guess. Basically, they've taught me how to be a man. Does that count?

30. Who has had the most influence on you?

As much as I would like to say my mother, and don't get me wrong, she has had tons on me, I'll have to go with Simon. It was him that took me under his wing, I guess. He taught me how to appreciate not only the big things, but also the small things. He was there to wipe my tears when I needed him, there to help me study and to practice lines for my sixth grade play. Even when he was gone overseas, he taught me how to be brave. His letters spoke to me and it showed me that it was possible to still be happy when faced with so much danger.....so yeah, Simon.

43. What are your political views?

........HA. Really, I laughed, because you know what? Politics is the last fucking thing on my mind, considering all the hell the government has put me and my family through. Screw that, I don't have any. Hell, I doubt I'll ever even vote in my life after all this shit.

74. What, if anything, do you like to read?

Everything? I mean, I just love books. Especially fiction. I mean, there is nothing like getting lost in someone else's world, especially if it is like, a world you know you can never be in. It's why I like Piers Anthony's stuff so much. Xanth is a rad series, and I mean rad. And so complicated! It's been going on for flippin' ever now and the original characters have branched out with families and new ones have been introduced. It just makes your head spin, trying to grasp all of the steller plot and character lives he gets out. Man is a genius.

76. Do you smoke, drink, or use drugs? If so, why? Do you want to quit?

I don't. I lost three of my brothers once because of drugs. Not lost as in, in the grave, but lost as in, I didn't know who they were anymore lost. And it was scary as hell. We just had this big...thing, were they found a bottle of vodka in my room that had a little gone. And it was stupid of me, but with becoming what I am, I tricked myself into believing that it helped me sleep. I drank it like, one week, when we first got to Alaska, around my first moon here. And it was stupid of me, especially considering what happened to my brothers. I don't think I'll ever forgive myself for all the mixed up pain and confusion that one little bottle caused, but I'll never touch it again.

84. Describe the routine of a normal day for you. How do you feel when this routine is disrupted?

Wake up, deal with brothers, go to school, come home, deal with brothers, talk to friends (maybe), eat dinner, deal with brothers, go to sleep. Rinse, wash, repeat. Easy enough, right? And I don't care if it gets disrupted. This is one of the stupidest questions I've ever answered.

93. What goal do you most want to accomplish in your lifetime?

To be able to leave Birch Creek. Which isn't something I can accomplish, but I hope I get to anyway. Personally, though, I want to go to college, I want to get a degree, I want to be able to make my mother proud when she looks down on me from Heaven, if there is a Heaven. I want to go where no March has gone before (corny, I know), but I just want to MAKE something out of my life, you know? I mean, I love my brothers, but they don't exactly have the type of jobs that you can take a break from, you know? They are kind of stuck in what they do, can't get out without starting over. I want to be able to do something that allows me to grow everyday. And...wow, how corny of me, gee.

94. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?

Man, I dunno. I always see this type of question and it gets me thinking, but I can never seem to answer it. Five years is a long way away, and you're whole life can change in a lot less than that, believe me, I know. So, I don't think it is a good idea to answer this because I'll just be setting myself up for disappointment, you know? So, give me five years. We'll see.